not yet

I'm not ready. I need more time. Please please Lord, just a couple more years.

I'm not ready for my son to grow out of childhood.

My son will be 12 years old this August. He will be going to a High School. I know the 7 & 8's keep different schedules than the older grades. That does not make me feel better today.

A few weeks ago I started to notice changes in my little boy. Some attitude. He admitted he has a girlfriend (whether they actually speak to eachother is still in question).

I'm not ready.

He wants to walk over to the corner store with a friend after school. He wants to walk to his best friends house alone (thank you Jesus for that best friend!!!)

Come to think of it, it was a few weeks ago that he asked to go to his first Youth Group. He went alone. He is so much braver than I ever was.

It was also just a few weeks ago that he went to the front during a worship set at a Youth Rally we had taken him to (his dad was a speaker).

Man I love that kid!

When the fear starts to swallow me, as it has so many times these past few weeks, I'm just reminded to pray pray pray.