rebuilding

When the Japanese mend broken objects, they aggrandize the damage by filling the cracks with gold. They believe that when something's suffered damage and has a history it becomes more beautiful.

Barbara Bloom

God has been good to me, to us, to our family. There has been heartache. There have been many strugles. There has been hurt and pain.

But He is filling in the cracks with gold. He is rebuilding us from ashes.

I know in 10 years I will laugh with my husband at the struggles we once had.

I look forward to those days.

perspective

Perspective means a lot. Does who we are define our perspective on life? Can our lives change when we change our perspective?

I heard a couple my age (young-ish) respond to the question "do you have children"? In their response I suspected they would have loved to have had children but perhaps were unable. Yet I heard no sorrow, no bitterness and saw no glimpse of trouble on their faces.

"That's a story in itself" one of them said. Peacefully, with a smile. "But we have children living with us".

That is the place I need to get to. My past is the past. It will not change. There are many things I regret. Things that make me sad. Anguish that rips through my heart. Places that churn my insides with memory. Some days I feel it rise up like a volcano inside me.

There is only One who can put the pieces back together.

Will I let Him?

praying for a breakthrough

I'm really struggling ..it's been a while (like forever) and I'm tired of struggling and I'm trying to put together this plan to get out of this rut I'm in. Only I don't know how to write a plan and my husband is so so so frustrating. I know I need to listen to him cause he's right. I have all these issues I need to deal with. Physical stuff (excema, nail biting, picking, fidgeting, itching) and mental stuff (tired, irritable and intolerant) and I know it's all wrapped up in the spiritual

So I'm going to start with this. And would you check in with me?

I'm going to grab my bible and put on some worship music and lay on the ground and read and pray....and keep crying. And I'm praying I will just keep crying out to God til I have a breakthrough cause I don't want to live the rest of my life like this.

So, i know you are busy but would you check in on me in a couple days, a week, whatever? Ask me what I'm doing to get through this roadblock that's been holding me back.

if I ever finish this stupid plan I'll be able to answer you. Arg

PS. I chickened out. I didn't move. I can't move. I missed my archives, my boxes, my stuff. I'm a blog hoarder (seen that new A&E show HOARDERS ?)

I'VE MOVED!!

If you are reading this...THANK YOU. Thank you for checking back in with me. I appreciate all three of my readers lol

Something was holding me back from posting and I think it was the sensitive nature of some of the things I want to talk about, and the complete lack of any sort of privacy here.

So I have a new home at ashes2rubies.blogspot.com

God is doing something in me and I'm excited to have the freedom to write it out without any concern.

Not sure when or if I will disable or hide this one. We shall see.

this is the 500th time I've sat in front of my blog page, thinking I should blog and not blogging.

I'm not really quite sure why, just don't feel like writing :P

Adding Zest to your Nest

Adding Zest to your Nest

Adding Zest to your Nest

I am interested to read what these every day ladies have to say about that hush hush topic of ....sexual intimacy in the marriage.

Starting a movement

I loved this post by Raggamuffin Soul "7 Keys to Starting a Movement"

It can be really discouraging trying to start something; being in a group of people, excited about something, wanting others to get involved and they just aren't into it.

But you know, God is really big. If we're serving Him, He is faithful and He'll bring along that 2nd guy who wants to dance like a maniac with us...and the 3rd and the 4th...it's all up to Him.

So really, I guess all that matters is that I keep doing what I beleive God wants me to do. I feel kinda bad if I'm irritated the people around me with my enthusiasm to try and get them into what I'm doing. But perseverence and patient is rewarded.

And I'll just keep praying for God to bring more women to our fellowship!!!!